The following is a guest post from Christine Li, Ph.D., whose story of finding lost time by looking in her closet is part of my “Stories of Recovery” series. Christine is a clinical psychologist who specializes in helping her clients recover from chronic procrastination and anxiety. She started her blog, Procrastination Coach, in 2013.
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Not a Shopaholic But Still in Recovery
I have never considered myself a shopaholic. I’m not much into fashion or stuff for that matter. But I am in recovery from shopping.
Makes no sense, you say?
I realized many, many years after my adolescence, that the way I used shopping to fill my time was not helpful to my overall well-being. I would use shopping to browse, to wander, to be relaxed, to numb out, and to zone out. I would go shopping whenever the time permitted. Part of that impulse felt positive and fun even, but I was never a very good shopper. I never knew what I wanted. I never knew what I needed. I never had a style or brand that suited me.
My closet, therefore, ended up becoming a warehouse of unmatched, ill-fitting, fuchsia-dominated clothing pieces. Because I was not good at cleaning out the old to bring in the new, the closet also became a veritable history of what I wore through the decades years.
Recovering, But Not on Purpose…
So how did I recover?
It certainly was not on purpose.
My original goal was to improve on my overall stress level. I was always behind schedule, feeling panicked and overwhelmed, and I wanted to feel more confident and steady. I turned to my closet and began giving away, donating, and tossing what wasn’t well-fitting, comfortable, or current. It took some time, but the good feelings that resulted were really good. Fuchsia left, but the better clothes seemed even better now that I could find them and could use them well.
Because I enjoyed my newly-functioning closet a lot and my easier selection of items to wear, I began going shopping less. Again, this was not on purpose. It was the gradual result of a series of small, but meaningful shifts.
Finding the “Missing Time”
Lo and behold, the time I saved from not going shopping was huge. It was the missing time I had been looking for and had been hoping to find. Being able to use my time more consciously and mindfully brought me even richer rewards. I started doing better work. I learned to relax. I stopped feeling like I was in a rush all the time. My relationships deepened. I even started a blog and found I enjoyed pouring my energies into it.
I’ve learned over these past few years how much responsibility we each have over how we plan, use, and enjoy our time. I’m grateful I don’t need to shop anymore to fill my time, and even more grateful to have more time to fill!
I wish you all the best in your own journey to find what is a perfect fit for you.
A big thank you to Christine for sharing her story! Learn more about Christine via her blog, Procrastination Coach.